thirteenth fusion

[beholdmydemons]

Damn but it's been a while since I've done this.

Three Pokemon for sale! Togetic at level twenty-eight, a female, cheerful, name of Beatrice. A Happiny at level twenty-seven, sweet but a little spoiled, female as well. Answers to Mary. And then an Altaria at thirty-six, a male, a little scattered. Name me your price and we'll haggle it out.

On the road again at last with hardly a care in sight. I'm the last you'll hear complaining about a life of traveling freely but lately I've had the feeling of turning a wheel over and over when it's not firm on the axle. Traveling and winning battles and having the money to continue doing so but where are we going after all. Once Pokemon are at the hundredth level can they really grow no stronger? It seems disheartening. I hope that spells out nothing about humans. I shudder to think I could look up and into the future and see a wall where an ever rising road could be.

I've languished these past weeks and only of my own failing. Come and gab and have me make a friend of you. Or a rival if you'd rather.

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[doitrockapella]

It is, isn't it?

Though it's interesting to keep in mind that sometimes when a climbing vine reaches a ceiling, it simply opts to grow in a different direction, instead.

[beholdmydemons]

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I think I grasp what you're saying and it is uplifting. But in imagining what to do with that knowledge I'm stumbling.

[doitrockapella]

I'm suggesting you find a hobby. There's more to life than Pokemon — even in a world like this.

[beholdmydemons]

[what the hell do horses have to-

-ooohh.]

You're right. I despise most of the things I already know how to do. So what I need to do is learn how to do something else. Now I feel foolish that it's that simple and I didn't think of it myself.

[doitrockapella]

Don't be too hard on yourself. Sometimes things that seem obvious to one person aren't clear at all to another — that's just a reflection of their different experiences.

[Says the woman who was once so egocentric that she couldn't figure out why anyone wouldn't do things her way every time all the time. #character development.]

You might start by picking a friend you admire and seeing where their interests lie. Or solve two of your problems at once, and ask someone you've never met to teach you something they like to do. Then you learn a new skill, and maybe make a new friend to share it with all at once.

[beholdmydemons]

[weeeeeeell then]

For the sake of the search, how would you answer the question of interests?

[doitrockapella]

I once learned to fish because someone I cared about liked doing it.

Personally, I like to travel. A hobby from that might be collecting a souvenir from each place I visited, or taking a picture of myself with some landmark there.

[...or collecting a landmark from each place she visited...]

[beholdmydemons]

[ew fish.]

No offense meant to you, but I don't understand how that could make a person greater.

[doitrockapella]

Then my question for you is: what makes a person great?

[beholdmydemons]

That they are less and less able to be overcome and ruled by others. And that others think them a person deserving of the power they earn.

[doitrockapella]

So a great person is one who's surpassed everyone around him, and everyone around him knows it.

[beholdmydemons]

Knows and respects it for being genuine.

[doitrockapella]

So your ability to be great isn't really founded in anything you do, so much as it is what other people around you do.

[beholdmydemons]

Of course it is. One can't become powerful without acting to earn it or else it'll be hollow.

[doitrockapella]

Ah, but I didn't say "be powerful". I said "be great" — and by your own admission, that's founded in what other people think of you.

You might have all the power in the world, but if no one cares to recognize it, then you'll never truly be great. Isn't that how you see it?

[beholdmydemons]

Not at all. [....oh, wait, that's where he flubbed it. Words aren't easy.] I don't expect any praise and I don't particularly desire it. But whatever power I have I want to be the kind that anyone would recognize as true. And if I judge another then it will be on plain merit and not on any power they may have cheated out of others.

[doitrockapella]

Can you give me an example?

[beholdmydemons]

Of what?

[doitrockapella]

A type of power that anyone would recognize as true.

[beholdmydemons]

There's a fellow comes to mind but I don't think I can explain him.

Can't you imagine it? Power as tested by natural circumstance. [...you know what, there is kind of an equivalent -] What Pokemon respond to. Not given by inheritance or by a ruler but earned on one's own.

[doitrockapella]

I can imagine that. What I can't imagine is a kind of power so universal that you couldn't find someone who'd refuse to acknowledge it.

[beholdmydemons]

Those would be the kind who resent their lack and seek power by underhanded means then work to convince the rest it's deserved.